Goodbye

Saudi Arabian desert sand dry

I cough, I choke 

Water?!!!

WATER!!!!!

Breathe 1,2,3

1,2,3

1,2,3

1,2,3

My pulse begins to drop

Tears well in my eyes

They never fall

Who is this man staring at me??

Familiarity 

Faint recognizance 

Still yet unplaced

My mind races thoughts still conspiring against the host

Even now after all this time

All the fighting 

&&

For what?

FOR WHAT?

Tell me DAMNIT

I won't ask again and my temper oh my temper!!

I will raze this place to the ground

Patience thin as hair

The veil it no longer clouds me i'm starting to see

Colors

Beautiful, Destructive, Dirty, Malignant, Sublime, Majestic

Colors

Recollection

It dawns on my like a new day

I remember

The man!!

He is me

I am he 

Not who I was meant to be

Not who I wanted to become

The Monster

I prayed oh how I prayed 

That this Love wouldn't take my life away 

I release you from the chains that 

Bind && Blind

Goodbye 

My sweet beloved betrothed

Forever never lasts