Lost Boy

Pleasurable pain
Look into me
Do you see my soul
Know ye the measure of a man?
I have long struggled with this place
Toiling
Pacing 
Pleading
Bewildered, Beguiled
I had waited 
Oh so patiently
Virtuous Vice
Innocence, purity, frailty, meekness, fear
Things lost in the fire of KNOWLEDGE && DESIRE
Truly lost???
or hidden???
Perhaps transposed?
Recreation by choice
It was lost
Something so clung to
Something so coveted
All to just BE
EXISTENCE
What is it that I live for???
The Struggle
The good great fight
To know
Ego, Egere, Egi, Actum
To lose is to find 
Truly it is so 
Written since before time