Goodbye

Saudi Arabian desert sand dry

I cough, I choke 

Water?!!!

WATER!!!!!

Breathe 1,2,3

1,2,3

1,2,3

1,2,3

My pulse begins to drop

Tears well in my eyes

They never fall

Who is this man staring at me??

Familiarity 

Faint recognizance 

Still yet unplaced

My mind races thoughts still conspiring against the host

Even now after all this time

All the fighting 

&&

For what?

FOR WHAT?

Tell me DAMNIT

I won't ask again and my temper oh my temper!!

I will raze this place to the ground

Patience thin as hair

The veil it no longer clouds me i'm starting to see

Colors

Beautiful, Destructive, Dirty, Malignant, Sublime, Majestic

Colors

Recollection

It dawns on my like a new day

I remember

The man!!

He is me

I am he 

Not who I was meant to be

Not who I wanted to become

The Monster

I prayed oh how I prayed 

That this Love wouldn't take my life away 

I release you from the chains that 

Bind && Blind

Goodbye 

My sweet beloved betrothed

Forever never lasts

Time to go

Hello Lovers!!! I know it's been a while since i've posted anything but you know how it is life calls so I have to answer (: .. Anywho let's just jump right in to it && for todays topic let's talk about L-O-V-E.  "Love is a Devil," That's Shakespeare that man knew about love.  It means if can make you do the craziest thing act completely neurotic and out of character.  Now you know this is my favorite topic because its so multidimensional it can go so many many many many different roads.  So I purpose the question: When is it time to stop letting your heart tug you in a direction all logic && reason tells you is incorrect?, When do you pick up the pieces and move on?  I'm a hard type of lover I will give you everything not just my love but me the real me .. when the wall come crashing down it's EVERYTHING.  Sometimes we don't quite get over things && people and when the heart is involved this can be the most dangerous form of expression.  You see misplaced longing and desire can make a person go insane, trust me I KNOW.  Being in love with someone who doesn't love you back is one of the hardest toughest pills to swallow.  LOVE ME BACK.  It seems we can always seem to find someone to lust after us, want us, desire, not quite want to be with us but at the same token not want anyone else to either.  My friends it's time for us to wake up and start smelling the Starbuck's because we keep confusing love with lust or desire and the two are monumentally different.  We have to figure out if it's love or is it just that i'm so SCARED OF LONELY that i'd rather take empty expression over the silence which seems to scream so loudly.  Time to pack your bags once && for all and this time you can't forget your most valuable asset .. your HEART .. always remember that one because if you leave it behind when you realize your forgot it and go back to retrieve it you only get stuck on stupid and start to roll backwards.

Finitely So: Forever, Never & Always

It seems as though we often use words like forever and never to express ourselves and represent the fact that we are extremely committed to this or that.  In actuality this is false to the nth degree.  As humans we change our minds as much as we change clothes in some cases so to say you could  love someone forever is as ridiculous as saying you never speed!  *Pause* Bring the car to a screeching halt.  Are you really trying to convince those around you or yourself of such outlandishness?  Here's the COLD HARD TRUTH people change they grown apart they become entirely different at times, situations arise in which we have to ask ourselves the hard questions like: is this really what I wanted?  So I leave you with this, next time before you decide to say i'll never do this or I always do that take the time, No really take the time, to assess just what is being asked of you and if there's any inkling of a shadow of a doubt don't even think about saying "I forever, never, or always.

Black Cherry

Dee Rocka

sitting at my desk eating black cherries trying remember poetic and pathetic are not synonymous ,though both can be tragic, focus me so mental magic conjure the true out of blue and color me something new ,outside the lines defined in the minds of those who find time to pass judgment, pay no mind you can’t afford that fine

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    Alonzo Baker beauty emphatic, whisper to me sweet black day, call to my heart send shivers down my soul, reap is to sow, i knew you once, or so it seemed my body teemed of you, forever in that one short moment , perpetuity, burned into my mind the black and white picture plays forevermore or so it would seem

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    Dee Rocka Smiles for dreams that never wondered merrily down a streams, still somehow gleam like silvery mythril, yet stronger that stolen seconds weighted like millennia amongst the moments of silence, what we don’t say can heal what we say now can surly kill, I suffer under the will of creation, temptation lingers on my lips , kiss the poetry make a new baby

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    Alonzo Baker burn at the fire, let consummation take hold, fire to ash, ashen to dust, dust back nothing?, no dust back to everything, rebirth renewal the phoenix, look into my new eyes same souls same rapture, come to me i call thee my soul it yet still bellows your name sweet beloved, i will incinerate this entire place until all that is left is you me us, it was you always, one last kiss your lips to mine heart and all and all and all

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    Dee Rocka 

    fall sweet cherry blossom under the burden of being so beautiful gravity too, desires to hold you close, host no otherworldly boast coast gently down and rest in the earth and ashes, cashes of treasures untold you hold in the universe of your delicate pedals, poet’s meddle with powers they can’t fully perceive but believe in them despite eyes lies and ears compromised capacity for consuming fiction and virtual reality. We love this ability to connect abstract and subtract causality making the metaphor actual reality, yo these black cherries are sweet as the words we weave I see baskets of material what will you do with it Alonzo?

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    Alonzo Baker 

    I will keep it hold love it cherish it black cherries no i regard them precious diamonds, your diamonds hard as stone, my heart of stone you melt it with your words purity love kindness, i have long since been unconsolable, yet you make me bare naked raw, drink the sweetest nectar of me and make it us, i have waited for you alone since the dawn of the days of cognizance i have waited oh and patiently too, now that i have found what eons took to locate NEVER will us part not in death not in life forevermore as i've already said lay with me come to me in honesty and i will sate you until the skies come crashing down

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Just Friends?

Many times we find that relationships can quickly turn from fairy-tale to nightmare in .05 seconds, and usually when this happens we just want it to END.  What about when the fairy-tale comes to an end and there are no hard feelings no resentment just a "mutual" consensus that it just wasn't meant to be.  As children we learn fairy-tales don't ever last and there's always a last page always an ending to every story whether happy or disparaging.  That brings us to the next point; the premise if you will, can two people both mutually exclusive in a committed honest relationship go from lovers to friends?  In my own experiences I found it easier to just cut them off completely go my own way and never look back, I'm the type that once we're done we're DONE.  On my quest for spiritual personal emotional growth and maturity I have found that one may not go through life like this so moving forward I have tried other methods like say: friendship.  I must say as one normally reserved and emotionally introverted individual it's especially quite hard!  So a parting thought for the day: Can they ever look upon each other without that deep meaningful longing in their eyes?  Can they ever be "just friends"  

Lyre

Loveless desire 
Unbridled passion 
Ensuing flames
Consummation of the host
Release? ... NONE!
I knock at the door
No answer?
Forgotten keys 
So I wait
(( Patiently ))
No answer?
My soul grows restless but I do remain
Lingering
Waiting
Hoping
Frozen in a LOVE
Long expired
Thoughts racing conspiring against the host
Betrayed
Betrayal of the mind
The clock doth strike MIDNIGHT
I grow weary losing ...
My breath???
No???
I exhale, 
My soul escapes me 
My Time dwindles 
Yet I remain
I remember the song
Your song
Remembered yet not quite placed
YES, just like a lyre
Immortally yours
My Resonance
Your chain
Forever bound to this place
Remember the last kiss???
Oh how it felt
Warm Earth
Hot Sun
Fiery Souls 
Only in dreams now
My GIFT to you
A soul for a song
An eternal sweet black kiss
In exchange
For an eternally pure song
Bound forever
Your curse
My release
I waited
How kind 
Only in dreams now 
Real was it???
Fabric now
My regards to a caged songbird
Sirens Sing
Forevermore 

Lost Boy

Pleasurable pain
Look into me
Do you see my soul
Know ye the measure of a man?
I have long struggled with this place
Toiling
Pacing 
Pleading
Bewildered, Beguiled
I had waited 
Oh so patiently
Virtuous Vice
Innocence, purity, frailty, meekness, fear
Things lost in the fire of KNOWLEDGE && DESIRE
Truly lost???
or hidden???
Perhaps transposed?
Recreation by choice
It was lost
Something so clung to
Something so coveted
All to just BE
EXISTENCE
What is it that I live for???
The Struggle
The good great fight
To know
Ego, Egere, Egi, Actum
To lose is to find 
Truly it is so 
Written since before time

My Black

The suffocating black chasm [suffering, oppression, hatred, anger]
surrounds all ... EVERYTHING ...
Blinding, Binding, Grueling, Ruling, Exasperating darkness
Bright as night, clearer than all days ... Oh yes the days ... long since forgotten ... always and forever ...
Covering and smothering, using and abusing ... in and out, in and out, out and in time ... forever more ...
The truest lies of truer lives soothes the soul ... what's left of it as they say ... confusion, most profound elusion tricky evasive, founded first there within ... take life take flight go and grow ... boldest blackest ... 
So so so soulful ... sing me melody for my black touches light and truly withers and dies ... 
It was said that it would be ETERNAL ... oh yes truest of lies

Yours

So tell me NOW && truly
To what is it that you search?
What does your heart pine for?
Is it ephemeral pleasure?
Temporary release?
Or is it so much more?
I stand before you 
OPEN
Bare
Naked
Look not through me 
But look into my HEART
It's OPEN
Yours
My GIFT
So so fragile
So so irreplaceable
Will you guard it 
Like the grail of Holy
Or
Will you toss it aside
Like novelty
It is yours
The choice of the matter
&&
The thing itself
Yours
Your gift
Your decision
Your rite
Your burden
Yet choose wisely
For I do FADE
Ashen to dust
Dust to eternity
Eternity back to nothing
But I shall wait
&&
Forever more if it is so
Yours

20-YEARS-OLD

Older
Wiser
Boyhood ends
The man begins
Spring-time bloom
The bird takes flight
Darkness fades && brighter days arise
Anew
Rebirth
Renewal
Self: to lose is to find
Thoughts progress
Pulse quickens
Self-aware
Powerful mind
Soft touch